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昨日、YouTubeの御陰で初めて子供の頃に見ていた「宇宙刑事シャイダー」の終わりを見ました。いや〜よかったですね。（でも、夕日を見ながら握手するアニーとシャイダーはちょっと笑った．．．）あれだけ自分の人生が影響された番組なのに、今まで最後まで見てないのが笑えるけど、逆に言うとエンディングを見ていないからこそ自分の中にはまだ終わっていなかったですね。

やはり作品が終わるとちょっと寂しいですね。大体主人公達が何か解決して終わるけど、好きな番組がもう見れなくなるとあまり気持ちよくはないですね。今まで参加した作品も全部そうですね。撮影が終わるのもちょっと寂しいけど、放送が終わる時にどうしても何か失った気持ちがあります。でも、仕方ないですね。ストーリが終わらないと満足もしないから、いつか点を打たないとダメですね。そうして次の物語が始まります。

最近、よく今後の事を考えます。日本にいる間、この先どうなるかが大体見えたと思いましたが、アメリカに渡ってからはどうなるかがまったくわかりません。でも、行き先が決まっていないからこそ、自分がどこに行きたいかの再確認ができます。武術が好き。この業界が好き。そうして特撮が好き。とりあえずその三つがわかりました。その三つで導かれる行き先は？まあ、その内明らかになるでしょう。

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Yesterday, thanks to the wonders of a site called YouTube, I finally got to see the final episodes of my favorite show as a child, "Space Sheriff Shaider." I must say, it was a beautiful thing (although I couldn't help laughing at Annie and Shaider shaking hands while the sun set). For a show that had such a huge impact on my life, it might seem a bit laughable that I never saw the ending until now. But on the other hand, you could say that because I never saw the ending, the story was never really over for me.

It is always a little sad when a show or movie ends. Granted, it usually ends with some kind of resolution by the protagonists, but the fact that you will no longer get to see them doing what they do isn't exactly a happy thought. I can definitely say that it has been like that will all of the projects I have been involved with. It can be a bit sad when the filming comes to an end, but it's when the broadcast/run comes to an end that I really feel a sense of something lost. Of course, there really isn't anything you can do about that. Without closure, there is no feeling of accomplishment, so it has to end some time. And then you look forward to the next story/chapter to begin.

These days I spend a lot of time thinking about the next chapter in my life. When I was in Japan, I often felt that I had a good idea of how my life would play out, but since coming back to America there is little about the future that I feel is certain. But with that uncertainty comes the freedom of being able to re-assess where it is I want to be headed. I enjoy Wushu. I like this industry. I am a big fan of tokusatsu/hero stories. Thus far I have been able to figure out those three things. As for where those three things will lead me... Well, I guess I will figure that out somewhere along the way.